Oh babe I totally understand .... to the point that I am going to counselling starting Feb as I am finding it sooooooooo hard..... the pain in my heart is so intense that I cry when I see a pregnant lady and I think gee thats how big I should be with Hugh, or newborns or anything relating to pregnancy!! It is amazing how many people think 'oh I thought you were over it, or I thought you are ok!'.......Just because you have a your brave face on (you have to for you kids) doesn't mean your not in a world of pain in the inside!.....


sorry waffling about myself I guess what I am trying to say is I understand your pain and sending you lots of love and strength ......

P.s breaks my heart when my dd points to my belly and says baby gone mummy sad